I have been MIA from my blog recently. I tried to do a come back but I lost interest again and I wasn’t quite sure. Now I understand why- social media and Instagram! I was not loving my posts as my feed didn’t look like everyone else’s which made me think the same about my blog. I am not the best with taking pictures and editing, and I don’t really enjoy photography but I was trying to improve. I have now realised that most things on Instagram are fake. I have felt insecure as I thought I was not doing much with my life compared to these people on Instagram. But I soon realised that my Instagram could also show that I have this amazing life by setting a day to go and take pictures in different locations and take a few different outfits and then post a different picture everyday. I feel like I need to just do what I want to do and not worry about what everyone else is doing. I have been put off using my blogging Instagram due to all these reasons and I can’t imagine picking it up any time soon. I am hoping to keep going with my blog and maybe have a mini makeover as I haven’t done anything with it for a year which may give me more motivation.
So it’s coming up to my 22nd birthday and I am excited but also very apprehensive about it. I have been having one of those melt downs about moving out, getting married, having children all by 25… yeah… one of those… I am not ready to grow up but the years are going by so quickly! Since becoming single early this year, I have such an amazing time and I now realise how important friends are. I have been out most weekends and I even went on a girls holiday which I 100% wanted to do. I am making sure that I start making loads of memories and doing exciting things.
I am so happy with how much more confident I have gotten. I am slowly getting better at doing things by myself and getting over anxiety. I am proud how I handled my relationship break up which I was in for 2 and a half years. I did not cry a single tear which really surprised me and made me realise how unhappy I must have been which was very unexpected. I am currently enjoying being single and I now know what I actually want in a future relationship.
So I thought I’d give my blog a little update on how I am feeling at the moment. I hope I can get into blogging again and have an amazing birthday etc.